![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
This must be "midlife crisis".
A LiveJournal friend asked what people's dreams were and how they changed over the years. Here's how I answered "what did I want to be when I grew up":
(Plus of course the whole standing up thing. Realistically, veterinarian is not for me this lifetime.)
Computer programmer and square dance caller weren't ever really on the list. Person who works from 6:15am to some time around 8:30pm wasn't on the list. (That was yesterday.) Person with cats, yes; that's always been there. I'd like a dog some day, if I find a means of income that involves being home during waking hours.
But that's the interesting question now, isn't it: do I have any dreams? Any that are left, that is. Those I've discarded I've discarded for good reasons, and while that hurts a lot, I'm not going to change it. Do I have new dreams? Have a dog? Okay, that's one. Anything else? Is that the best I can do?
It's time to reinvent myself.
I wish it were a faster process.
A LiveJournal friend asked what people's dreams were and how they changed over the years. Here's how I answered "what did I want to be when I grew up":
Astronaut. I "figured out" I couldn't do that because I was a girl; by the time I learned differently it was too late.
Blue Angel pilot. Yeah, still a girl.
Writer. I never really wrote anything, at least anything that didn't suck. I'm not sure what that says about me and my dreams but it probably isn't good.
Much later I decided I'd be one of those feisty old ladies who ran marathons into her seventies. So much for that.
Now I'd kind of like to be a veterinarian, but I'm not sure I want it enough to raze my life to the ground and start over.
(Plus of course the whole standing up thing. Realistically, veterinarian is not for me this lifetime.)
Computer programmer and square dance caller weren't ever really on the list. Person who works from 6:15am to some time around 8:30pm wasn't on the list. (That was yesterday.) Person with cats, yes; that's always been there. I'd like a dog some day, if I find a means of income that involves being home during waking hours.
But that's the interesting question now, isn't it: do I have any dreams? Any that are left, that is. Those I've discarded I've discarded for good reasons, and while that hurts a lot, I'm not going to change it. Do I have new dreams? Have a dog? Okay, that's one. Anything else? Is that the best I can do?
It's time to reinvent myself.
I wish it were a faster process.
no subject
I've been wanting to respond to this, because it's such a good question. But I don't actually know how to answer. :-/ I keep wondering this too. I guess I'm going to finish my degree, and I'm going to a lecture series on some industry jobs, and taking some mini-classes this summer -- that might give me a notion what to do afterward, I guess. But I feel like I still only have a few things I'm choosing between -- an industry job doing something like what I'm doing now, an academic job doing something similar (big or small school), or... I don't know. I'm not sure what to do if I really want to reinvent myself. Which I might. I'm not sure! Sigh.
Let me know if you figure it all out. :)