Dreams

[cjsmith]

This must be "midlife crisis".

A LiveJournal friend asked what people's dreams were and how they changed over the years. Here's how I answered "what did I want to be when I grew up":

Astronaut. I "figured out" I couldn't do that because I was a girl; by the time I learned differently it was too late.

Blue Angel pilot. Yeah, still a girl.

Writer. I never really wrote anything, at least anything that didn't suck. I'm not sure what that says about me and my dreams but it probably isn't good.

Much later I decided I'd be one of those feisty old ladies who ran marathons into her seventies. So much for that.

Now I'd kind of like to be a veterinarian, but I'm not sure I want it enough to raze my life to the ground and start over.

(Plus of course the whole standing up thing. Realistically, veterinarian is not for me this lifetime.)

Computer programmer and square dance caller weren't ever really on the list. Person who works from 6:15am to some time around 8:30pm wasn't on the list. (That was yesterday.) Person with cats, yes; that's always been there. I'd like a dog some day, if I find a means of income that involves being home during waking hours.

But that's the interesting question now, isn't it: do I have any dreams? Any that are left, that is. Those I've discarded I've discarded for good reasons, and while that hurts a lot, I'm not going to change it. Do I have new dreams? Have a dog? Okay, that's one. Anything else? Is that the best I can do?

It's time to reinvent myself.

I wish it were a faster process.

Comments

[busysuzy.livejournal.com]

Well, getting a dog is a Very Good Dream! ; )

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Dogs are great. I'm one of those rare folks who is both a cat person AND a dog person. How's your dog doing these days? You have just one, right?

[busysuzy.livejournal.com]

I am one of those cat/dog people too. I used to have 3 cats and I would love to have cat/cats again but it wouldn't be fair to the felines. You see, I have not one, but 5 dogs (see user icon for the 4 Bostons). The Bostons would LOVE to have kitties! And the Rottweiler would REALLY love to have kitties! So, alas, no kitties for me...

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Hahahaha! :-) I see the problem.

I guess it was the Rottweiler I remembered you talking about. I didn't know the four in the icon were also yours. Yay dogs!

I grew up in a house that always had both cats and dogs. Beagles, yellow Labs, and German Shepherds are perfectly content being buddies with cats -- once the human points out which cats are "theirs", leaving all others as fair game. :-)