Snippets

[cjsmith]

I've been pretty busy and haven't written much of substance here. Still busy, so here are a few snippets.

1. Last week my sister and her fiance' ran the Boston Marathon. I'm proud as heck of her so I mentioned it a bunch. ONE PERSON thought to ask me, since I can never run again on my painfully damaged feet, whether I was a bit sad. It was an Internet friend whom I've met face to face only once. I'm trying not to pay attention to what this says about the people "close" to me. The quicker I can get over it the quicker I can be happy again.

2. Poll. Go vote.

3. Hey Rob: zoomable Carina nebula.

More later.

Comments

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Thanks for your comments!

Isn't it great? I love to know the two of them are out doing stuff like that.

I didn't mention the marathon on my LJ, and my "complaint" here was not in any way meant to reflect on my LJ friends. (Not that you necessarily took it as such; I just wanted to clarify.) I did mention it (briefly) in a LJ community, but people there don't necessarily know of my foot problems or of my previous love of running. And of course my family knows, but my family was (quite rightly) busy lauding my sister. Mainly I mentioned it to folks in person. I'm realizing how few close friends I have made here in the last sixteen years. I feel like I haven't truly put down roots since my move from the east coast. Maybe it's time, eh?

I hear you about the awkwardness. I would probably feel the same if situations were reversed. I don't know how to make that any easier, except to say "hey, feel free to mention it, or feel free to not". No one's obligated to throw a pity party for me (and a pity party would be no fun for either of us)! Oddly, after crazyladynocats asked me how I was feeling that day, I suddenly was feeling a whole lot better. One tiny mention turned me right around. I felt noticed, acknowledged, cared-about -- and one sentence was totally enough. That's probably a tangent. I don't know if I'm even on the same subject any more. Just a peek into my psyche.

I thank you for the compliment! That "invisible" bit is a family-of-origin thing. I grew up not really noticed for who I was or how I felt inside. Now that I think of it, I'm glad there's none of THAT kind of visibility from immediate family members! ;-)