First one done

[cjsmith]

First insulin dose given tonight. I'm so proud of me... for facing it, for being willing to fumble my way through it, but mostly for catching her when she tried to run off with the dang thing still hanging out of her skin.

And she's eating, thank God, she's eating.

Comments

[rampling.livejournal.com]

[catching up on back LJing...]

Ahhh, the wonderful feeling of success, of working past your fear to help your cherished kitty! Good for you! So brave! Good for Duchess! Yaaaaaay!

I wonder if a lovely side effect of all this needling might be to ultimately lessen your fear of needles somewhat. That'd be quite nice!

*MORE-HUGS* and *kitty-purrs* from mira_kitty

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Thanks muchly!

So far all this needling has suppressed my fear of needles. I deal pretty well when I'm actually doing the deed -- and then all that upset comes out in the anxiety-laden hamster wheel of my mind just before dropping off to sleep. Night before last I spent two hours not getting to sleep and grimly not puking. Fortunately it DOESN'T affect my ability to medicate Duchess, and I have high hopes that it'll get better!

[rampling.livejournal.com]

Wow, that's interesting, that you can supress it but that it does come back like that. Well "interesting" in the "too bad it still sucks" sense, that is. Still, that's a *big* improvement, I'd think -- that you're able to get through it and focus in the moment and do the important deed. I hope these aftershocks diminish -- from what you say not every night has been as bad as that two hour torment. A sign of hope, I'd think.

Ohhh, *STILL-MORE-HUGS*.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Isn't that weird? I was surprised my mind would do that. And yes, not every night was like that, which is hopeful.

*hugsback*!