Sometimes I'm so stressed that I can't imagine what would help me relax, even for a moment. I think I want to take a break and then I realize I've been so overwhelmed that I've been taking nothing but breaks. Then I want to take a break from THAT because the energy involved in suppressing the stress is so high.
I imagine myself at a spa getting my feet rubbed... or curled up in a nest of blankets, or sitting in a hot tub... and any of that would just be something else to get through. It wouldn't solve the problem. None of the relaxation would go past the skin and touch me.
Gah. What do you do to relax? Really relax? (Aside from alcohol or drugs. THERE'S a good way to make sure I'm completely ineffective!)
I know I'm just going to have to get through it. It's just a matter of time. And really, I'm blowing the whole thing out of proportion. It doesn't merit this much angst. But gaaaah I really want it to be DONE.
I imagine myself at a spa getting my feet rubbed... or curled up in a nest of blankets, or sitting in a hot tub... and any of that would just be something else to get through. It wouldn't solve the problem. None of the relaxation would go past the skin and touch me.
Gah. What do you do to relax? Really relax? (Aside from alcohol or drugs. THERE'S a good way to make sure I'm completely ineffective!)
I know I'm just going to have to get through it. It's just a matter of time. And really, I'm blowing the whole thing out of proportion. It doesn't merit this much angst. But gaaaah I really want it to be DONE.
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For me, the most effective way to deal with the sort of state you are describing is to fill my brain up completely with some problem hard enough that getting to an answer is going to require the complete ignoring of all other concerns. Since I perfected this approach, I'm basically capable of scratching my head over geometry as the house burns down, so one must be careful, but it *does* solve the problem you're talking about. It is also a very handy way to get unstuck on a problem. If you've ever noticed the phenomenon of getting stuck on something, setting it aside and later coming back to it and having the solution be obvious, you can induce that effect in much shorter time than it takes to naturally just realize it in the shower the next day.
*hug* Wish you weren't so stressed.
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Things *will* get better. I just wish they were better NOW. [whine, foot-stomp!]