I will now chew off the inside of my own face

[cjsmith]

Sometimes I'm so stressed that I can't imagine what would help me relax, even for a moment. I think I want to take a break and then I realize I've been so overwhelmed that I've been taking nothing but breaks. Then I want to take a break from THAT because the energy involved in suppressing the stress is so high.

I imagine myself at a spa getting my feet rubbed... or curled up in a nest of blankets, or sitting in a hot tub... and any of that would just be something else to get through. It wouldn't solve the problem. None of the relaxation would go past the skin and touch me.

Gah. What do you do to relax? Really relax? (Aside from alcohol or drugs. THERE'S a good way to make sure I'm completely ineffective!)

I know I'm just going to have to get through it. It's just a matter of time. And really, I'm blowing the whole thing out of proportion. It doesn't merit this much angst. But gaaaah I really want it to be DONE.

Comments

[veazeyae.livejournal.com]

I hope you get a chance to relax.

Er, have I mentioned that that icon is muy disturbing? :)

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Thanks. Hee hee, it's a baaaaaaaby hitler! ;-)

I also really like that icon of yours. One of the few animated things I don't just adblock. :-)