I will now chew off the inside of my own face

[cjsmith]

Sometimes I'm so stressed that I can't imagine what would help me relax, even for a moment. I think I want to take a break and then I realize I've been so overwhelmed that I've been taking nothing but breaks. Then I want to take a break from THAT because the energy involved in suppressing the stress is so high.

I imagine myself at a spa getting my feet rubbed... or curled up in a nest of blankets, or sitting in a hot tub... and any of that would just be something else to get through. It wouldn't solve the problem. None of the relaxation would go past the skin and touch me.

Gah. What do you do to relax? Really relax? (Aside from alcohol or drugs. THERE'S a good way to make sure I'm completely ineffective!)

I know I'm just going to have to get through it. It's just a matter of time. And really, I'm blowing the whole thing out of proportion. It doesn't merit this much angst. But gaaaah I really want it to be DONE.

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[jtidwell.livejournal.com]

Sometimes the relaxation, getting-away-from-it-all things really do help me destress. Other times, they make it worse because I just need to GET IT DONE ALREADY, whatever it is that's stressing me. Those times, I just put in long, persistent hours in order to get through it and put it out of my life. People tell me I should take breaks, but honestly, taking breaks would make the stress worse... it's hard to explain to them.

Hm, looks like runeshower said something very similar. Yeah. What she said. :-)

(Sympathies... you're probably getting this question a lot, but at some point, could you tell me privately what's up?)

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I've got it done and am now waiting. (Well, mostly. There's more I could do... SHOULD do... but it's small, now.)

I hate waiting.

E-mail on the way.