I will now chew off the inside of my own face

[cjsmith]

Sometimes I'm so stressed that I can't imagine what would help me relax, even for a moment. I think I want to take a break and then I realize I've been so overwhelmed that I've been taking nothing but breaks. Then I want to take a break from THAT because the energy involved in suppressing the stress is so high.

I imagine myself at a spa getting my feet rubbed... or curled up in a nest of blankets, or sitting in a hot tub... and any of that would just be something else to get through. It wouldn't solve the problem. None of the relaxation would go past the skin and touch me.

Gah. What do you do to relax? Really relax? (Aside from alcohol or drugs. THERE'S a good way to make sure I'm completely ineffective!)

I know I'm just going to have to get through it. It's just a matter of time. And really, I'm blowing the whole thing out of proportion. It doesn't merit this much angst. But gaaaah I really want it to be DONE.

Comments

[just-cyd.livejournal.com]

i'm a big fan of lists. writing things down, making sense of things and giving them priorities, and getting them outta my brain, goes a long way to giving me control over whatever's bouncing around my brain.

another de-stress tactic i use at home is to take a 10-15 minute veg-out nap. sit/lay on the couch, focus on breathing deeply (i tend to hold my breath when stressed) and calming myself down.

*hugs*

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Breathing. That's a good one. *nods*

I'm a big fan of lists too -- you should see the number of lists I have generated recently. :-) Heh!