I will now chew off the inside of my own face

[cjsmith]

Sometimes I'm so stressed that I can't imagine what would help me relax, even for a moment. I think I want to take a break and then I realize I've been so overwhelmed that I've been taking nothing but breaks. Then I want to take a break from THAT because the energy involved in suppressing the stress is so high.

I imagine myself at a spa getting my feet rubbed... or curled up in a nest of blankets, or sitting in a hot tub... and any of that would just be something else to get through. It wouldn't solve the problem. None of the relaxation would go past the skin and touch me.

Gah. What do you do to relax? Really relax? (Aside from alcohol or drugs. THERE'S a good way to make sure I'm completely ineffective!)

I know I'm just going to have to get through it. It's just a matter of time. And really, I'm blowing the whole thing out of proportion. It doesn't merit this much angst. But gaaaah I really want it to be DONE.

Comments

[sharya.livejournal.com]

I'm a huge fan of a nice warm bubble bath, a good book, and hot chocolate, or a glass of good wine.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Mmm, hot chocolate - I hadn't thought of that one!

[sharya.livejournal.com]

I was reading the rest of the comments here and it looks like you've got a good list of suggestions going. Also noted that it's primarily a waiting game you're having to deal with, and for that (for me at least) it's all about distraction. The busier you can keep yourself and your mind, the easier it will be to wait out whatever it is that you're waiting for.

Whatever it is, if you ever feel like sharing, I'll be right there giving support (along with the rest of your lj list!).

*hugs*

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Thank you! There's a reason I can't (yet) explain it all here on LJ, but I suspect (I hope I hope) it won't be too much longer.

Busy and distracted. I like that. Oh rfrench... ;-)