Calling and flying (and the internal fight)

[cjsmith]

Fortunately Rob keeps his journal up to date so I can crib from him. Friday evening Rob flew us down to LA, and over the weekend we called a sparsely-attended dance. (Me, I did not do taxes today as Rob's second entry notes he did. In between all this goofing off on LJ, I'm trying to justify my paycheck. :-) )

This weekend I have two flight lessons scheduled. The weekend after that I have two flight lessons scheduled. See, I had been giving myself a major guilt trip for not flying since Christmas, so I went and made sure this stuff was on the calendar. It didn't work; I'm still on the guilt trip. And then somewhere in my brain a recording is saying over and over that I will never get back to the level of skill I once had. This same voice insinuates that I never did fly very well in the first place. Anyone have a super-pill for shutting up the voices inside one's head? Gosh darnit, I'm nothing if not stubborn. I'm going to try to regain that old skill and better. But wow, it's a heck of a fight.

Comments

Re: shutting up voices

[moriamerri.livejournal.com]

Oops, sorry, I think I misunderstood. I took the pill comment way more figuratively. My mistake.

Actually I imagine there is a pill -- I don't know for sure and no recommendations on which one(s) -- but I think it is VERY likely it also has some other effects that you may be unhappy with. I find GABA (a fairly pricey supplement) extremely helpful for anxiety (as in "high" anxiety -- meaning more than my usual operating level). I don't know if any level of anxiety is part of your situation.

Finally, I see from your additional comments that the voices are way more of a problem than I gathered at first. So, sorry if my suggestions were unhelpful rather than just "in the wrong direction". Sending best wishes.

Re: shutting up voices

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Oh, no problem at all. You didn't misunderstand. The pill comment was both figurative AND an offhand joke! (In a comment below I say I want those voices surgically excised. Same sort of feeling.) Your comments were along the lines I often do myself -- argue them into submission. :-)