Ow

[cjsmith]

Square dancing tonight. The good news: I danced almost a full session. The bad news: my feet hurt in the same way they did before surgery. It's possible they don't hurt quite as much; I'm not sure.

It's not post-op pain. That wouldn't be half so bad. This is the same kind of pain I had before. This pain means it didn't work. Western medicine's final answer has failed.

I'm trying really really hard to pretend that this is not the case. I need to focus on surgery recovery before I focus on whatever snake oil I'm going to try next. But I am very bummed.

Comments

[mactavish.livejournal.com]

Oh no, that's so sad. :(

[cyan-blue.livejournal.com]

Hugging you...

[lesliepear.livejournal.com]

(HUGS). Could it just be from dancing after a layoff?

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

I find it doubtful, but not completely out of the question. Some of the pain might be from this. Maybe. In which case there will be some gradual improvement as I toughen up.

After reflection this morning I must admit my daily life -- walking around in my office building -- IS better now. So there is improvement, even if the pain isn't totally gone.

[katestine.livejournal.com]

*cries*

[sebab.livejournal.com]

*hug* I'm sorry.

[quasigeostrophy.livejournal.com]

*hugs* That sucks. I wish I could snap my fingers and fix it.

[ericainohio.livejournal.com]

Oh CJ, it breaks my heart to hear this.

Is it possible that you'll get a better idea of what's going on with your pain level after you're *totally* recovered from the surgery?

((Hugs))

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Yes, definitely. I have to go a couple more months, break down that scar tissue a bit, wait for the phantom pain to fade, and I'll have a better idea.

[hitchhiker.livejournal.com]

i'm so sorry to hear that :( *gentle hug*

[datagoddess.livejournal.com]

Oh, poo.

*hugs*

[lkeele.livejournal.com]

Aw, sweetie, I'm sorry.

[dizzdvl.livejournal.com]

There is no swearing and complete frustration in this post. Maybe they hurt less a little?

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Less a little, yeah. I think mostly I'm beyond frustration!

[dizzdvl.livejournal.com]

Aw that sucks. :/

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Yeah, *sigh*. Time to dig out that swim cap again :)

[hnybny.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't give up yet. Having had surgery myself, even after the scars heal and you can do what you did before, many times the pain is still there. I guess after a longer healing period (say 3 months) if it's still as painful I'd rethink it.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

At the very least we can't do much about any other kind of pain until the surgery recovery is closer to complete. The scar tissue needs to shrink and the phantom pain needs to fade a lot. Couple more months.