I think it didn't work

[cjsmith]

Still a little too early to tell, perhaps, but if I push on the ball of my foot with my thumb it hurts in an old familiar way. (Non-numb area.)

Well, crud.

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Footnotes and Disclaimers, to save some typing.
- Yes, there is still the possibility that my overall pain level will be better than before. In fact, that's probably still likely.
- Yes, I am sure this is not post-op pain masquerading as something else (it's in the wrong place, for one thing, and it's waaaay too familiar).
- Yes, it helps that an outcome of "partial improvement" was pretty much obvious from the start: the blow is softened just a little.
- No, I'm not particularly looking for sympathy -- no obligation to comment -- I'm just disappointed and I don't yet have much energy to face the next steps.

Comments

[just-cyd.livejournal.com]

i'm tempted to (playfully) smack your hands and tell you "no! quit doing that!" in the hopes that delaying any such trials would alter the results. 'cause i really really really want this to be successful for you. and i care enough to be a pain in the ass if it means less pain in your feet. a long distance Nurse Ratchet?

looking forward -- is there any plan in place to teach you how to walk properly on your new-and-improved feet? i seem to recall you walking weird to lessen the pain, but with the mechanics of your feet altered slightly, i'd think there'd be some re-training necessary, or post-op PT (mom had that). will orthodics be required? let me find my teleporter and i'll be right over to take you shoe-shopping.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

I wish I believed waiting would alter the results! Nah, if they can't take the level of pressure I applied with my thumb, they're going to be really unhappy with running. Gotta talk to the doctor more about this at my next post-op (week and a half from now).

Doc has already mentioned PT and orthotics. If I need new and different orthotics it'll be my third set! And ohhhh, yeah, I wish you could come with me to go shoe shopping. You could be my moral support: "CJ, this store doesn't HAVE custom shoes. Let's go to the next one."