Deadline

[cjsmith]

I may have to face the fact that I'll never get better. What would I do if I knew right this moment that I would never again walk without pain?

The Never Get Better To Do List
1. Apply for disabled parking placard.
2. Cut my hair. Ditch gym membership, get a Y membership. Begin swimming.
3. Quit square dancing.
4. Get an electric scooter, all-terrain if possible. Maybe buy a new car to accommodate it.

I'm holding off on doing those things because I cling to the hope that I'll get better. In some ways the worst part is not knowing either way for sure. My life is on hold until a miracle occurs.

Maybe I should set a deadline. How long am I willing to stay on hold, given that it's already been a year and a half and given that miracles aren't looking likely?

Comments

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

Swimming also works the legs as well as the arms and back -- a good complement to the wheelchair work.

I can still call square dances, for a while, until my credibility erodes due to lack of dancing. That'd be years.

[lesliepear.livejournal.com]

I don't think your creditibility would erode just because you can't dance anymore - you know the culture and I'm sure you have friends.