Deadline

[cjsmith]

I may have to face the fact that I'll never get better. What would I do if I knew right this moment that I would never again walk without pain?

The Never Get Better To Do List
1. Apply for disabled parking placard.
2. Cut my hair. Ditch gym membership, get a Y membership. Begin swimming.
3. Quit square dancing.
4. Get an electric scooter, all-terrain if possible. Maybe buy a new car to accommodate it.

I'm holding off on doing those things because I cling to the hope that I'll get better. In some ways the worst part is not knowing either way for sure. My life is on hold until a miracle occurs.

Maybe I should set a deadline. How long am I willing to stay on hold, given that it's already been a year and a half and given that miracles aren't looking likely?

Comments

[msmichelle.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry CJ. I hope you find an option that cures your pain.
Maybe just a break...
1 & 2. Bravo! Especially the swimming: low impact, good cardio. As others have said, you don't necessarily HAVE to cut your hair, unless you want to...there are many cute, low maintenance short hair cuts I'd love to try myself. :)
Can you still be a part of square dancing? Maybe take a break from the physical foot related. Or would it be to hard to be there and not participate fully?

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

Swimming also works the legs as well as the arms and back -- a good complement to the wheelchair work.

I can still call square dances, for a while, until my credibility erodes due to lack of dancing. That'd be years.

[lesliepear.livejournal.com]

I don't think your creditibility would erode just because you can't dance anymore - you know the culture and I'm sure you have friends.