Deadline

[cjsmith]

I may have to face the fact that I'll never get better. What would I do if I knew right this moment that I would never again walk without pain?

The Never Get Better To Do List
1. Apply for disabled parking placard.
2. Cut my hair. Ditch gym membership, get a Y membership. Begin swimming.
3. Quit square dancing.
4. Get an electric scooter, all-terrain if possible. Maybe buy a new car to accommodate it.

I'm holding off on doing those things because I cling to the hope that I'll get better. In some ways the worst part is not knowing either way for sure. My life is on hold until a miracle occurs.

Maybe I should set a deadline. How long am I willing to stay on hold, given that it's already been a year and a half and given that miracles aren't looking likely?

Comments

[vito-excalibur.livejournal.com]

The Little Mermaid's story would have ended a lot more happily if she'd been this pragmatic, for sure.

My only advice: living your life on hold sucks. I spent a long time on hold until I "got a job knew where I was going to be working" - staying in an apt. I didn't need to, and such. I started having more fun once I accepted that I was working as a contractor, and unpredictability didn't need to be feared so much as lived with.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Oddly, I've thought about the Little Mermaid a lot lately. (The original story, of course.)

You're absolutely right that living on hold sucks. Time to cut that out. I can think of fun things to do that don't involve weight on my feet. Maybe I could learn to ride a motorcycle. Cut my hair short (see swimming) and dye it hot pink. Stuff.

[vito-excalibur.livejournal.com]

Doesn't seem odd at all to me. :/

Hot pink dye unfortunately won't coexist well with swimming either. :P

Went to see the doctor again today. He emphasized the importance of not just abandoning exercise - you have to find the exercise you can do with your injury. So I'll run, & you swim, because I can't.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Aw, no hot pink dye in the pool? Darn.

Too bad we can't just trade injuries from time to time. Monday, I swim and you run; Tuesday, other way round...

*sigh*

[vito-excalibur.livejournal.com]

It's not so much the pool that's the problem. :) The dye will just fade faster & you'll have to redye it every 2-3 weeks. That's a little too annoying for me, but YMMV.

We should do dinner next week.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Oh! I see. Temporary is good, 'cause then I can dye it forest green sooner. :-)

Definitely dinner next week. Pinging you about that was comin' up soon on my mental guitar.