social life

[cjsmith]

Here are a few things I notice.

- anyone who's interested in spending time with me becomes less interested once they get to know me
- the people who know me best have the least time to spend with me
- if I stop reaching out and making invitations, I stop seeing anyone (there's one exception here)

What that tells me is either a) I'm going mad, and imagining observable facts, or b) I do not provide value. (Long term, that is. Short term -- people who don't know me yet -- I think people like the tits. But long term, they see what else comes with, and it's no longer a net win.)

I have to learn how to be a net win, how to provide better value for time spent.

Comments

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Yeah, throwing a party is *very* rare for me. Last time I did that I was lucky not to have to replace expensive equipment that was... well, not QUITE misused. Plus one guest, annoyed at something, said right in front of me "We'll never have THIS [way of doing things] in OUR house." (To be fair I don't know if she knew I was standing right there.) I also got some kudos and all, but nah, parties aren't worth it for me.