social life

[cjsmith]

Here are a few things I notice.

- anyone who's interested in spending time with me becomes less interested once they get to know me
- the people who know me best have the least time to spend with me
- if I stop reaching out and making invitations, I stop seeing anyone (there's one exception here)

What that tells me is either a) I'm going mad, and imagining observable facts, or b) I do not provide value. (Long term, that is. Short term -- people who don't know me yet -- I think people like the tits. But long term, they see what else comes with, and it's no longer a net win.)

I have to learn how to be a net win, how to provide better value for time spent.

Comments

[ambar.livejournal.com]

And here I was just replaying our last lunch the other day, with a wistful "Damn, it was nice of her to drive to Benicia."

I am about to die in a pit of o-chem, but April will be better, if you're up for a reprise.

*hugs*

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

I suspect I'll be employed by then (& thus more geographically tied down middays) but hey, y'know, I've been saying "I'll probably be working by then" for far too long now, so what the hey, if I'm NOT, April reprise it is!

Was that sentence even parsable?

[ambar.livejournal.com]

Well, *I* managed to parse it.

I misspoke myself, though. My Chem final is 18 March, and the week after that I have no classes (which means my Tuesdays/Thursdays are negotiable), and after that I am back to the grind and then some (I registered for a full load this quarter, not counting the Bio lab class, which runs on a semester frame and is thus In Progress.)

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Mmm, blrg... I'm most unbusy just *after* the last weekend in March, as there's a big square dance gig that weekend and I have been punting the prep work for far too long. If I'm counting the days right, that works out just plain pessimally for us being unbusy together.