social life

[cjsmith]

Here are a few things I notice.

- anyone who's interested in spending time with me becomes less interested once they get to know me
- the people who know me best have the least time to spend with me
- if I stop reaching out and making invitations, I stop seeing anyone (there's one exception here)

What that tells me is either a) I'm going mad, and imagining observable facts, or b) I do not provide value. (Long term, that is. Short term -- people who don't know me yet -- I think people like the tits. But long term, they see what else comes with, and it's no longer a net win.)

I have to learn how to be a net win, how to provide better value for time spent.

Comments

[tsjafo.livejournal.com]

I like you, tits unseen, because of what I've read. I admit my view of you is limited your journal, but what I have seen makes me think you are a pretty wonderful person and I find it an honor and a privilege to know you.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much. (imagine a shy smile here.)

It's so easy to be grumpy and figure nobody likes me... but y'know, I don't know that unless they've said as much.