Realization

[cjsmith]

I wouldn't respect myself if I deliberately took the good end of an unfair deal. If I knew that's what it was and I took it, I wouldn't respect that. That's not the kind of friend or partner I want to be.

So, no wonder I don't often wind up with the good end of unfair deals. And no wonder I am shocked or hurt or judgmental when someone I otherwise respect wants to do [what APPEARS to me to be] exactly that.

Duh.

(What portions of this can I let go of?)

Comments

[firecat]

I wouldn't respect myself if I deliberately took the good end of an unfair deal.

Ooh, I recognize that T-shirt.

In fact, it's in an entire drawer full of T-shirts about "holding back" in general.

It's not that I feel unworthy, it's just that I don't feel I'm more worthy than other people. But then if someone comes along who does...

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

It's not that I feel unworthy, it's just that I don't feel I'm more worthy than other people. But then if someone comes along who does...

Bingo. That hits the nail on the head.