Grrr

[cjsmith]

Frustrated. Angry. As usual, no one's fault but my own. Why am I such a MORON? Why do I procrastinate things? Ugh. This is the second time in a row I have screwed up this particular thing, too, which just makes it indescribably worse.

Can I just run away now? I'll move to someplace where no one can find me, no Internet connection, no phone, nothing. I'll never have to worry about this again. I won't guilt myself into trying a third time, and I'll never even have to fess up that I, CJ Smith, f*cked it up AGAIN. I'll just vanish. I won't let anybody down ever again. Poof, I'm invisible, I'm gone.

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[lkeele.livejournal.com]

Can I come with you?? I've done a couple of stupid things I'd like to disappear from, too. (Again, procrastination, with BIG consequences. Damn that sux.)

Big hugs.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Absolutely, you can come with me! You want it should be you and me and abz6598 at Glacier, or should we do some separate disappearances?

*hugs* back dear...

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[lkeele.livejournal.com]

Hmmm... I think we can disappear together, if we don't tell each other what we're disappearing from. :)

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Oh. Yeah. OK, I'll stay quiet if you stay quiet. That way I get to see you! :-)

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[lkeele.livejournal.com]

Sounds great, girlfriend!!! Hey -- did your quarter come yet???

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Not as of yesterday - maybe today?

Thanks so much for sending it! I had been so sure I'd had that one that I gave two away to my friend whose daughters (6 and 3) are collecting. Then I never found one for me! :-)

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[lkeele.livejournal.com]

Yeah, we did the same thing with delaware!! A *million* delawares were circulating around here, and we actually gave some away -- and forgot to save any for Timmy!! :) We finally found one, though.

The next quarter is Indiana. I'm excited -- it's the first quarter of a state I've lived in!! I hope it comes out before we move!!!

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

I got it I got it I got it! *bounce* *bounce* Thanks SO much, girlfriend!

If you don't get Indiana before you move, I'll ship it to you in Cairo, how's that? :-)

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[lkeele.livejournal.com]

Cool, thanks!!

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[lkeele.livejournal.com]

And speaking of stupid mistakes -- made one today that sent my son's blood sugar spiraling downward. Damn. It is so hard being a parent!!

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Ouch! Yuck! There are some areas very unforgiving of basic human error. Instrument flight is one. Sounds like managing the care of diabetes for a son is another. I hope he's doing better now!

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[lkeele.livejournal.com]

Yeah, he's much better now. In fact, I'm letting him run a little high, just to make sure he's ok!!!

Yeah. Diabetes management, especially with an insulin pump, has zero forgiveness for human error. Bleh.