Sort of scary

[cjsmith]

I am beginning to wonder if I am losing my mind.

1. I’ve always had times when I couldn’t think of the word I wanted. Am I more aware of it now, simply because I’m hanging with folk for whom the right word really is required, or is it actually HAPPENING more?

2. I used to be smart, able to learn new things rapidly and able to come up with solutions to problems. I don’t see that now. Is this a normal situation for a 50-year-old coming back to a profession ditched more than a decade ago, or is there more going on?

My mind has always been pretty much my only ally and my only asset. I don’t know what I’m going to do if it too is abandoning me.

Comments

[zahraa]

This has been a massive irritation my whole life. I know we're supposed to say, as feminists, that we can do anything that men can do, that being a woman isn't that debilitating, but for me it always has been. The working world was never going to let you spend a week or a week and a half of every month in bed; you just had to get up, go to work, and take whatever drugs you had to take to be as functional as you could be. And that's what I'm still doing. I'm hoping to have that victory party sometime soon, but let's just say it's going to be at least another year from last Saturday. Every time I see a woman in her 60's fanning herself when it's not really hot, I feel more and more discouraged.

[cjsmith]

It’s always been crippling for me as well. Knowing what I know now, I am constantly amazed that most young women choose to stay alive into adulthood.