Some days are like that

[cjsmith]

Happy Hour in the office today is nachos and beer. In terms of progress, my day so far has pretty much been like yesterday, and things aren't exactly speeding up while I listen to everybody else party. Did I mention that the music is loud?

I realize I have really turned into a whiner lately. I do not like being a whiner. There must be things I can do to improve this situation. So far, I can think of three dramatic changes I might be able to make, any one of which would help in the short term:
1) Get off this diet
2) Get off this project
3) Find a job at a less food-oriented company, or at least one that isn't militantly carbohydrate-only

Maybe other things would help too. It is now my job to think of them.

But damn, it sure would be nice to be like everybody else once in a while. I took years to accept the fact that I would never again be fully able-bodied. I thought I was done with this "suck it up, everyone around you can enjoy things you will never enjoy again, get used to it and learn to shut up" kind of mental adjustment crap. Now I have the relentless tyranny of food in addition to being a gimp.

Some days just suck.

And now I need to think of ways I could make life suck less.

Comments

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

It's unbelievable to me how difficult this is. Somebody once compared it to "dieting" and I about wanted to smack her; if I could be merely "dieting" I would jump for joy right now. I am almost starting to doubt my own sanity.

[moriamerri.livejournal.com]

har har har -- the almost doubting your sanity part is some kind of hidden built in thing. (No, I'm not being sadistic, it is rather dark humor though.) Takes me back to life on crutches: I could so see how the psychological parts were built in to the deal, but also sort of deep and hidden. Have you seen the magazine "living without" -- I don't recall which Whole Foods I was in recently that had it by the checkout (could have been in Palo Alto, or may have been the one by Hamilton off 17). I think of that because I do find there is some help in others who understand and/or know how to actually help.

Do you have a working email address? Or do I need to post offers *here*?

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

*wry laughter* You are so right about the hidden built in thing. Sometimes that's worse than any of the obvious parts of the problem, because at least the obvious parts other people will (when sufficiently beaten over the head) understand and if they choose they can help, but the nonobvious parts you're alone with.

Haven't seen "Living Without".

Not sure what you mean by offers. I do have a working email address but it is so spam-choked that I've gone to a whitelist system. Comment here & delete, or send Rob, your e-mail address and I will make sure to whitelist it.

[moriamerri.livejournal.com]

Living Without is a magazine about restricted diets. There is a segment of This American Life that refers to it to -- possibly Starly Kline (sp?). I may have to go find it for you -- seems like just the ticket for your current situation -- food restriction humor...