No extra time

[cjsmith]

[LJ-CUT TEXT="I need to start making some responsible decisions."]

I went out with a friend to a steak place last night (thank you, shoutingboy!), and I got home late -- after my nominal bed time.

The steak was scrumptious. The company was excellent. I greatly enjoyed the break.

Of course, there are always tradeoffs. As a result of this choice I made, I didn't get the laundry put away, I didn't do the grocery run I have agreed to do before 6pm tonight, I didn't clean the litterboxes, I didn't bring the mail inside, and I didn't do the dishes. (I did bring the trash out, bring the parcel in from the porch, feed the cats, and medicate everyone including me. Late, but medication was given.) Because kitty also has the UTI again, my bathroom's gone and I had to set her up in there with a litterbox again, which further ate into my sleep time. I didn't give her extra fluids, which would have been good home care. I most certainly didn't get enough sleep!

I also get two trips to the vet today and my daily routine gets "medicate Little Girl" added twice a day. Probably fluids daily, too - ten to fifteen minutes. I still haven't done the grocery run, which means leaving work earlier than usual, and I was later than usual to arrive at work because of Trip To Vet 1.

I need to realize that until and unless I get a lot more efficient with general life stuff, I cannot do things like that. Healthy people go out to dinner with friends. I cannot, not right now. With the sleep problems, the size of my daily routine, and cats who get sick(er) at the drop of a hat, I simply don't have the spare time.[/LJ-CUT]

Sometimes I don't like being a grownup. But I like to think that when being a grownup is the best thing to do, I'll do it.

Comments

[brooksmoses]

*nods* And actively choose what gives, yeah -- and do it before actually slamming into the wall, ideally.

What happened to me was that I didn't recognize the situation for what it was, and spent nearly all my waking hours either sitting at a computer procrastinating and feeling guilty (and in a state where I couldn't actually work without nearly working myself into a panic with worry about how far behind I was and how nothing was ever going to get done), or else eating and sleeping and worrying about not getting anything done.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Right, because by the time you're at the wall, you're much less able to prioritize and make decisions.

That description paragraph sounds all too familiar, actually. I wonder how many times I've been there and not seen it for what it was.

[vito-excalibur.livejournal.com]

Agreed. Simple willpower will not allow me at least to fill all my available time with work. It will get my butt in the chair, but then I will spend my time flicking.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Yes! This! And not *relaxing* flicking, either. Flicking causing more and more repressed stress.

[vito-excalibur.livejournal.com]

Yes! Leading to a weepy breakdown and then whiny self-hating posts to LJ. ;)