It's sinking in

[cjsmith]

It's Monday and I'm not at work. I'm overwhelmed with job-related suggestions and ideas, for which I heartily thank you all! It's sinking in that I'm really on the next step now.

Emotionally, the next step seems to be the grumpies.

This morning I had my annual doctor's appointment in which nothing gets done and I pay $430 for the privilege. I'm also currently under a wave of foot-related grumpy, probably because last time I was off work I could run. I'm relearning how to eat right (my usual pattern is to snack on junk all day) when I don't have friends coming by my desk reminding me it's lunchtime. But have I invited anyone to lunch? No, I've just sat here. I haven't even responded (yet) to one friend's invitation to drop by her house.

I'm hermiting.

Worse, I'm ignoring stuff. Under the guise of taking a break, I'm doing nothing at all. I didn't go swim this morning, and I could easily have. I haven't tried to find new special shoes now that the ones I'm wearing are falling apart. Ditto jeans. With all this free time I've put nothing in the crock pot, and I've baked no cookies or pies. I haven't touched the shirt I started sewing last time I was out of work.

I know that though this is minor, it will grow and feed on itself if ungoverned. Activity, that's what I need. A good long run would...

...dammit.

Okay, maybe a load of dishes.

Comments

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Yeah, the stress has been hanging around for about a month -- long before I made any kind of announcement that I was leaving. Now there's a huge sense of relief that I'm not there any more. I'm not pretending, I'm not faking anything, I'm not doing work I was utterly unsuited for... relief! The stress about finding a new job, and about money, is nothing by comparison. It should be big, but my stress receptors are worn out! So yeah. Sloth. Definitely.

[wooddragon.livejournal.com]

After I quit last year, it took me longer than I thought to de-stress. Well, some of the stress lifted the day I left. But I had residual stress for a while (perhaps due to the fact that I decided to add more life stress by moving)... :)

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Well, yes, you didn't exactly have a zero-stress period of time after that! So how are you doing on the stress levels now? You're settled in the new place, hopefully NOT moving for a while, and not at a soul-sucking job. That much seems good. :-)

[wooddragon.livejournal.com]

No stress! Pretty much none at all. I *love* it!

There are things I miss very much, but stress is not one of them...

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Excellent! THAT is the way to live. I'm glad this change was so good for you on the stress front!