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So I haven't been exercising, not anything worthy of the name. Heart disease, here I come. My blood pressure is already higher than it was two years ago. I am afraid to look at my cholesterol numbers.
My level of hope is near its all-time low. I laugh bitterly at the smarminess of the idea that I will ever walk again without pain. Fluffy bunnies and rainbows are cute but I need to be practical and deal with real life. Are there people whose lives are truly so charmed that they have chronic pain and they get better? Surely there's no one who really believes in that stuff into adulthood. Surely.
Doctor appointment this afternoon. How much ya wanna bet she won't be willing to take all my nerves out? How much ya wanna bet she won't do *anything*? How much ya wanna bet she'll take my money anyway? I think this will be my last appointment. It's time for me to quit being so stupid and gullible.
My level of hope is near its all-time low. I laugh bitterly at the smarminess of the idea that I will ever walk again without pain. Fluffy bunnies and rainbows are cute but I need to be practical and deal with real life. Are there people whose lives are truly so charmed that they have chronic pain and they get better? Surely there's no one who really believes in that stuff into adulthood. Surely.
Doctor appointment this afternoon. How much ya wanna bet she won't be willing to take all my nerves out? How much ya wanna bet she won't do *anything*? How much ya wanna bet she'll take my money anyway? I think this will be my last appointment. It's time for me to quit being so stupid and gullible.
