Deadline

[cjsmith]

I may have to face the fact that I'll never get better. What would I do if I knew right this moment that I would never again walk without pain?

The Never Get Better To Do List
1. Apply for disabled parking placard.
2. Cut my hair. Ditch gym membership, get a Y membership. Begin swimming.
3. Quit square dancing.
4. Get an electric scooter, all-terrain if possible. Maybe buy a new car to accommodate it.

I'm holding off on doing those things because I cling to the hope that I'll get better. In some ways the worst part is not knowing either way for sure. My life is on hold until a miracle occurs.

Maybe I should set a deadline. How long am I willing to stay on hold, given that it's already been a year and a half and given that miracles aren't looking likely?

Comments

[dizzdvl.livejournal.com]

Well, I had a little "issue" with my Y a few weeks back concerning a cut lock, so I won't be going back. I have 2 swim caps (maybe 3, they seem to be all over) and I bought new goggles that aren't prescription goggles but I don't like wearing them with my contacts. So even if I go swimming this summer I won't be using them. The cap and the goggles are both Speedo.

Yeah, I think the flippers might end up hurting you more than helping, so I rescind that offer! ;) They tend to make you overextend to make you work harder. Plus they are snug and stiff and just might hurt your feet.

But just holler if you want the goggles and swim cap and I will send them out to you! Oh and the swim cap is swimsuit material so it is really comfortable. Latex swim caps are really uncomfortable.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Oh yuck. You're giving up swimming entirely, then?

I'd be very happy to take the cap and goggles off your hands, as long as you are sure you won't need them. :-) If you do rethink it, I totally understand. I sent you my address via your LJ e-mail.