Deadline

[cjsmith]

I may have to face the fact that I'll never get better. What would I do if I knew right this moment that I would never again walk without pain?

The Never Get Better To Do List
1. Apply for disabled parking placard.
2. Cut my hair. Ditch gym membership, get a Y membership. Begin swimming.
3. Quit square dancing.
4. Get an electric scooter, all-terrain if possible. Maybe buy a new car to accommodate it.

I'm holding off on doing those things because I cling to the hope that I'll get better. In some ways the worst part is not knowing either way for sure. My life is on hold until a miracle occurs.

Maybe I should set a deadline. How long am I willing to stay on hold, given that it's already been a year and a half and given that miracles aren't looking likely?

Comments

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Thank you! *smooch*

Are you ready to ditch your gym membership? *deep breath* I guess I'm ready.

[rfrench.livejournal.com]

Yes, I'm ready. I have everything I need here at home now.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

I'm going to go over there today and snarf my workout sheets from back in the Patrick days (assuming they're still in that file cabinet there).

[rfrench.livejournal.com]

They're supposed to clean them out if they haven't been used in a long time. I don't know if they'll still be there.