Deadline

[cjsmith]

I may have to face the fact that I'll never get better. What would I do if I knew right this moment that I would never again walk without pain?

The Never Get Better To Do List
1. Apply for disabled parking placard.
2. Cut my hair. Ditch gym membership, get a Y membership. Begin swimming.
3. Quit square dancing.
4. Get an electric scooter, all-terrain if possible. Maybe buy a new car to accommodate it.

I'm holding off on doing those things because I cling to the hope that I'll get better. In some ways the worst part is not knowing either way for sure. My life is on hold until a miracle occurs.

Maybe I should set a deadline. How long am I willing to stay on hold, given that it's already been a year and a half and given that miracles aren't looking likely?

Comments

[hnybny.livejournal.com]

Sorry you have to think about this stuff. Better to be prepared though. As for the hair they do make long hair caps and there are page on the web that tell you the best way to tuck it all in. I actually know someone who modified a cap with a latex tube and rubber cement so their hair could hang naturally and their cap wasn't so tight.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

That sounds like a creative solution!