Deadline

[cjsmith]

I may have to face the fact that I'll never get better. What would I do if I knew right this moment that I would never again walk without pain?

The Never Get Better To Do List
1. Apply for disabled parking placard.
2. Cut my hair. Ditch gym membership, get a Y membership. Begin swimming.
3. Quit square dancing.
4. Get an electric scooter, all-terrain if possible. Maybe buy a new car to accommodate it.

I'm holding off on doing those things because I cling to the hope that I'll get better. In some ways the worst part is not knowing either way for sure. My life is on hold until a miracle occurs.

Maybe I should set a deadline. How long am I willing to stay on hold, given that it's already been a year and a half and given that miracles aren't looking likely?

Comments

Re: My two cents

[lrc.livejournal.com]

As to the placard, it's kind of cheating, but I just got Dad's placard in the mail.

Have you talked to the gym about suspending the membership?

Is there any chance that doing something like using the scooter and getting off your feet and taking it easy for mumble months will be enough to let the foot heal?

Re: My two cents

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

I feel a little weird about cheating on such a thing, although if I were *sure* I would qualify for the temporary hang-tag I wouldn't feel bad about using a borrowed one until I got my own. Huh. I guess the source of my feel-weird is I'm not sure I'd be able to get one.

Doc says staying off it completely would be counterproductive (the nerves would likely flare up even more). I do not get it but am willing to defer to her expertise.

I should just ditch the gym thing anyway. Haven't used it in ages.

Re: My two cents

[lrc.livejournal.com]

The scooter is at my friend RC's shop in Santa Clara. Let me know if you want to check it out.

Re: My two cents

[genderfur.livejournal.com]

I am *sure* you will qualify for a hang-tag. All it takes is a doctor's note, I bleeve, and you've got docs a'plenty.

If you do cut your hair, consider donating it for wigs for children with cancer.