Deadline

[cjsmith]

I may have to face the fact that I'll never get better. What would I do if I knew right this moment that I would never again walk without pain?

The Never Get Better To Do List
1. Apply for disabled parking placard.
2. Cut my hair. Ditch gym membership, get a Y membership. Begin swimming.
3. Quit square dancing.
4. Get an electric scooter, all-terrain if possible. Maybe buy a new car to accommodate it.

I'm holding off on doing those things because I cling to the hope that I'll get better. In some ways the worst part is not knowing either way for sure. My life is on hold until a miracle occurs.

Maybe I should set a deadline. How long am I willing to stay on hold, given that it's already been a year and a half and given that miracles aren't looking likely?

Comments

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

'Cause swimming (with its extra repetitions of get-wet-and-wash-and-dry) would be so sucky on this already fine and split and icky hair that it'd be much better all round to cut it.

****hhhhhuuuuugggggg!****

[datagoddess.livejournal.com]

Swim cap!

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

I'll probably just cut the hair, it's easier than pulling it out strand by strand with a cap. ;-) Besides, if my hair's only an inch long I can dye it dark green and be back to normal in a month. Hmmm, possibilities.

[datagoddess.livejournal.com]

I love long hair, but I think you'd look good with short hair, too. And you can change color once a month. Purple! Red (and I don't mean auburn)! Blue!

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Exactly! Hot pink! Navy blue! Dusty rose!

[quasigeostrophy.livejournal.com]

Fucsia!