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Yesterday turned out to be a better day than I had feared. Yay!

Good things:
- My freezer is FULL of really yummy food.
- The house doesn't smell nearly as strongly as one might expect given the above sentence.
- Multiple must-do difficult tasks got accomplished and one more is soon to be done.

To do "tomorrow" (today when I wake up, presuming I do get back to sleep):
- One more hard must-do task
- Repair a reusable grocery bag, using that as a First Sewing Machine Project for someone who just learned this weekend to thread one and run it
- Maybe some holiday prep

Project

I have a Project. It is complex and will take years. It is probably the most challenging thing I have ever attempted, eclipsing such trivial feats as getting into MIT, flying an aircraft, or successfully becoming a veterinarian when I used to faint at the sight of needles.

That said, it is hauntingly simple to articulate.

Be happy.

So far I've got a five pronged approach.
1) Habits of thinking (e.g. consciously focus on positive stuff)
2) Rescue tactics (what to do when things are severe, e.g. phone a friend)
3) Natural tweaks (e.g. sunlight, exercise)
4) Social network (spend time with people who promote this instead of tearing it down - this one is painful, as most Bay Area tech and tech-adjacent people don't qualify)
5) Observe and learn from patterns (e.g. do I always get into a tailspin around certain topics? If so, why? Proceed to step 1 with these if possible)

Every so often I may post status updates on this.

Project Update: Patterns (Intelligence -Tailspin)

I can get into a tailspin when I see someone else do something that indicates they are smarter than I am. This tailspin doesn't ALWAYS happen with these situations, just sometimes.

1) why am I comparing
1a) habit: can I and should I stop?
2) am I right about the conclusion
2a) reminder: I'm not actually stupid; habit: don't jump to the conclusion someone is way way smarter just because you see someone who's out of the ordinary
3) why does it matter
3a) unfortunately I think I know why, and making it matter less may be a therapist project

Progress.

This is only one tiny drop in the ocean of this project, but it is concrete and can be examined. That's a win in my book.