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It is amazing how little food I need sometimes.
I'm eating very little right now, just because food seems yucky. I know I'll be back to normal some time soon, so I'm not worried, but... it's interesting to watch this process. What happens when I eat as little as I like? What happens when I don't force myself to eat what I think I should need?
It is amazing how well everything is working at the moment. Usually, I have a tendency towards low blood sugars. When I haven't had much food, I get grumpy, shaky, dizzy, a little bit stupid, and way way bitchy. That's not going on right now. I have some semblance of a normal life. At least for a while.
I don't know if I'm losing weight at the moment. Haven't checked. I suppose I must be. Hell, I'm even going for a run some mornings; that's got to be burning some fuel. But I'm eating soooooooo little. All that other food, all that extra I normally eat... how much of it is just feeding my inner glutton? Just passing through, just producing bodily waste? I bet it's a noticeable amount.
So far today I have eaten fifteen ounces of orange juice, assorted vitamins, and half of what the restaurant called a half-order of spaghetti. I have been awake ten hours and have run 1.6 miles. Yesterday was similar -- what I just listed was nearly my total for the day yesterday. Am I hungry? Yes, I feel hungry pretty much all the time. So right now I'm drinking the rest of my orange juice. I'm not collapsing, most of the time I'm not shaking, most of the time I'm not dizzy... it's really surprising how well it all works.
It's also surprising that I get like this (go through these short periods where I really don't want food) and despite hunger pangs I can be revolted by whatever I can think of to eat. I do have a pretty intense gag reflex, so I know not to argue with my body when it is revolted by something. Mmm, hungry, says my body. Want a burger? Oh, YUCK. No. Hungry is better than a burger. And hungry is better than snow peas, or a sandwich, or whatever. Amazing. The human body is a fascinating thing.
Of course when I come out of this I am going to eat like a bear. Better stock the larder.
I'm eating very little right now, just because food seems yucky. I know I'll be back to normal some time soon, so I'm not worried, but... it's interesting to watch this process. What happens when I eat as little as I like? What happens when I don't force myself to eat what I think I should need?
It is amazing how well everything is working at the moment. Usually, I have a tendency towards low blood sugars. When I haven't had much food, I get grumpy, shaky, dizzy, a little bit stupid, and way way bitchy. That's not going on right now. I have some semblance of a normal life. At least for a while.
I don't know if I'm losing weight at the moment. Haven't checked. I suppose I must be. Hell, I'm even going for a run some mornings; that's got to be burning some fuel. But I'm eating soooooooo little. All that other food, all that extra I normally eat... how much of it is just feeding my inner glutton? Just passing through, just producing bodily waste? I bet it's a noticeable amount.
So far today I have eaten fifteen ounces of orange juice, assorted vitamins, and half of what the restaurant called a half-order of spaghetti. I have been awake ten hours and have run 1.6 miles. Yesterday was similar -- what I just listed was nearly my total for the day yesterday. Am I hungry? Yes, I feel hungry pretty much all the time. So right now I'm drinking the rest of my orange juice. I'm not collapsing, most of the time I'm not shaking, most of the time I'm not dizzy... it's really surprising how well it all works.
It's also surprising that I get like this (go through these short periods where I really don't want food) and despite hunger pangs I can be revolted by whatever I can think of to eat. I do have a pretty intense gag reflex, so I know not to argue with my body when it is revolted by something. Mmm, hungry, says my body. Want a burger? Oh, YUCK. No. Hungry is better than a burger. And hungry is better than snow peas, or a sandwich, or whatever. Amazing. The human body is a fascinating thing.
Of course when I come out of this I am going to eat like a bear. Better stock the larder.
