Grrr

[cjsmith]

Frustrated. Angry. As usual, no one's fault but my own. Why am I such a MORON? Why do I procrastinate things? Ugh. This is the second time in a row I have screwed up this particular thing, too, which just makes it indescribably worse.

Can I just run away now? I'll move to someplace where no one can find me, no Internet connection, no phone, nothing. I'll never have to worry about this again. I won't guilt myself into trying a third time, and I'll never even have to fess up that I, CJ Smith, f*cked it up AGAIN. I'll just vanish. I won't let anybody down ever again. Poof, I'm invisible, I'm gone.

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[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Ugh. Sure does. Bleagh. Least I went and fessed up. That sort of thing doesn't wait well. But still... Gawd, I'd be mad at me if I let me down twice in a row. Heck, I'm mad at me as it is. Keeping my word is important to me. Grrr!