Impatient Idealist

Yes, there is the possibility of my getting a part-time job, though realistically not at least till summer (Allegra's schedule is not currently amenable to any sort of regular outside work schedule). Even more realistically not till after my sister's wedding in September (Scotland!). But the real kicker is I don't want to just get "any old job." I've done that. Did that for 15 years. I feel like there's a big opportunity here for me to finally CHOOSE a direction in my life, and that just running to fill up my time with "something productive" would miss that opportunity. However, like you, I'm a bit of generalist, so choosing a direction is hard. Which of these dozen things that I'm decent at should I focus on next? Should I go back to school? If I choose to support Akien's aim of coaching work, am I really doing what *I* need to be doing, or is it somehow "cheating" to "take on his goals as my own"? Would I find myself in 5 years very unhappy to have done that, and say, not have pursued more music (which I had seriously considered some time back, right before Victoria barrelled into our lives and sent that right out the window)?

So for the moment I'm in a "holding" pattern. Keeping my eyes focussed on the short term goals (gotta finish the paperwork to get her signed up for the summer program or I will go INSANE with her home all the time!). Periodically trying to sit and think about and discuss with Akien the various possibilities. (Just found an on-line Master's in Psych. program--that could be a good option).

How about you? What have you been thinking about as you consider your options and where to go from here?