Spending a season dead for tax reasons

[cjsmith]

I think I've been dead for six months. In many ways I've been emotionally numb, not allowing myself to feel much of anything. At least not anything good. Funny how the strongest armor seems to be used to keep good things from touching me. Those are scarier, more threatening, than bad things.

But now I'm starting to open up again. I'm starting to trust. I can let some of those good things in now. Ah, spring! May your rejuvenating magic continue to ease into my soul.

Comments

[wcg.livejournal.com]

It's interesting that you say this. I've been at a low ebb for several months too. I feel as if something shut down in mid to late February, and I'm only just now coming back out of it.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Interesting. I think that in my case part of it was simply winter. But I also went through a lot six months ago, with three biggish things any one of which could have knocked me off my rails for a little while, and I think I'm starting to pull out of that. Was it events in your life that triggered this low ebb, for you, or was it just one of those seemingly-causeless things?

[wcg.livejournal.com]

I think mine is a combination of (a) a really long, cold, snowy, nasty winter, (b) huge work stress as we've come down to the zero-gyro code load, (c) teaching two classes where my students kept having to miss due to snow days, which made a hash of my syllabus, and (d) some other stuff I haven't quite put my finger on yet. Once I get back to running it'll help, I feel sure.