ext_7923 ([identity profile] cjsmith.livejournal.com) wrote in [personal profile] cjsmith 2003-03-24 12:07 pm (UTC)

Hrm. At the very least, I worded that suboptimally. How about, instead of "innermost doubts", say any deep feeling? Or perhaps closer to my experience, any self-contradiction? Would that show more correlation? (I think it might for me; I do see some people who I perceive as sharing their self-doubt widely in the hope of gaining acceptance from others, and that's not the sort of thing I meant.)

When I'm in an acceptance frame of mind, I still have doubts... or rather, I perceive myself as a bundle of contradictions. At any given moment, one side of a contradiction may be showing more than another, so I do get a bit of a "layered" feel. The acceptance can be (and at my best moments, is) not only about each set of feelings and thoughts, but also about the very fact that they're contradictory.

Anyhow, as I said in my reply to [livejournal.com profile] klwalton above, I see self-acceptance as one of the things required for me to be open. I admire openness in others because of what it would take for me to be able to do that. I see it as courageous whether it really is or not. :-) I don't know if those traits actually have to go together for everyone, or even whether I myself would automatically be very open towards other people if I were wonderfully self- (and in-general-) accepting.

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