Work-Related Grumble

I officially hate SVN.

(Don't get me wrong; it's probably great for power users and people who never merge to/from a branch more than once or twice. Many thanks to preedmozblog, by the way, for pointing me at a tool that might replace my entire whiteboard for branch merge management. The problem I have with SVN is that when not everyone is a power user, or not everyone knows to track merges on their whiteboard, you get real trouble.)

LJ-Related Grumble

This is the third time since then. KEEP MY SETTINGS, YOU FESTERING MOUNTAIN OF PHLEGM.

(Edit ~8pm: Fourth. Also, hat tip to vito_excalibur for the inspiration for part of this message.)

VERY bad day for CJ

I went to the Stanford Pain Clinic this afternoon. The guy diagnosed me with something something neuritis (I'll get a copy of the full report when the typists are done with it), which he says is under the umbrella of CRPS (although not by any means a bad case).

He says there are several things we can try:
- Medication, which is not likely to work
- Some kind of funky spinal stimulation thing, which is not likely to work
- A sympathetic nerve block, which might or might not give partial relief for three hours or three weeks
- Injecting Botox (into the nerve?), which is not likely to work and which "there is no way your insurance will pay for"
- Surgical or mechanical interventions, which not only likely won't work but could make things REALLY WAY WAY WAY WORSE

So I might get partial relief from an expensive and uncomfortable procedure that would, if it lasts long enough to be worth it, have to be repeated over and over forever.

This is it. End of the line. No more hope for miracle cures, or even nonmiracle cures, or ever having a normal life again.

So, speaking of that last entry and the death of hope...

I am not at all in a good mood. Here are the things I want right now, most of them reflecting my very sour mood.

1. I want off the Bay to Breakers e-mail list. Permanently.
1a. I never want to hear about any road race, hike, backpacking trip, or square dance ever again, from any source. Yes, I am in a bad mood. This will pass.
2. I want a Do Not Call Or E-Mail Or Snail Mail bureau that will ensure that I never again get solicited to run, bike, hike, walk, etc (or donate money related to same) for somebody ELSE'S medical problem... until a) they do not use events glorifying able-bodiedness and b) somebody starts donating money to research MY medical problem. Yes, I am in a bad mood. This will pass.
3. I want to punish every person who has ever said "You can do ANYTHING if you put your mind to it. ANYTHING." This will not pass.
4. I want a glass of wine and a purring cat. And a slice of pizza.

The glass of wine, the purring cat, and the pizza I can have. I think I will go make that happen.

Thank you all

Thanks to everyone for the sympathetic comments. I know that expressions of empathy over the electrons can be regarded as not very useful, but right now, THEY MEAN A LOT TO ME. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

P.S. The picture of baby otters is helping a lot too.