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A little too little, a little too late?
Had lunch with a friend of mine, a local emergency veterinarian and vet school classmate. She is sad that vet med is losing me and thinks I’m a great vet. (She said “ninetieth percentile.”)
I had to ask how she knows. The last time we worked alongside each other was before graduation.
I’d forgotten: I transfer cases to her 24 hour center all the time. She may not be the first to take them, but if they stay hospitalized, she will see the records. She sees patients who have been worked up and those who haven’t; she sees the medical records, indicating how the referring clinician was thinking; she sees whether the client was told what a 24 hour center would likely do and recommend and cost or whether the client wasn’t prepared for any of that at all.
Okay. So she has at least SOME basis for saying what she says.
I honestly am extremely poor at self evaluation. When I graduated as a veterinarian I thought I was bright and had pretty good potential. (Whether I was right, I have no way to know.) By the end of internship I thought I still had good potential but I thought I was too high strung to be good at emergency. Now... I’ve frankly had my self confidence completely and utterly destroyed by the past couple of years.
So a local emergency vet (whose cases I’ve seen come back, and I think she’s super) thinks I’m not just a good vet but a really good vet.
If I had known that six months ago, would it have changed anything? I’m not sure. Maybe. Maybe not.
I guess either way I need some income. :/
I had to ask how she knows. The last time we worked alongside each other was before graduation.
I’d forgotten: I transfer cases to her 24 hour center all the time. She may not be the first to take them, but if they stay hospitalized, she will see the records. She sees patients who have been worked up and those who haven’t; she sees the medical records, indicating how the referring clinician was thinking; she sees whether the client was told what a 24 hour center would likely do and recommend and cost or whether the client wasn’t prepared for any of that at all.
Okay. So she has at least SOME basis for saying what she says.
I honestly am extremely poor at self evaluation. When I graduated as a veterinarian I thought I was bright and had pretty good potential. (Whether I was right, I have no way to know.) By the end of internship I thought I still had good potential but I thought I was too high strung to be good at emergency. Now... I’ve frankly had my self confidence completely and utterly destroyed by the past couple of years.
So a local emergency vet (whose cases I’ve seen come back, and I think she’s super) thinks I’m not just a good vet but a really good vet.
If I had known that six months ago, would it have changed anything? I’m not sure. Maybe. Maybe not.
I guess either way I need some income. :/
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It's really kind of disgraceful how work gets valued. I am continually astonished at how people whose jobs require so much more skill and training than mine make so much less money.
I only knew about the social life concern. I'm sorry about the self-confidence being destroyed, too. Wow.
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Looking back, I feel almost foolish that I stayed as long as I did. Ah well. Lesson learned. Next! :)
FIVE MORE DAYS starting this morning!
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At least if I get the job I’m currently interviewing for, lives will still be saved by my work. More indirectly, to be sure, but still. I won’t be doing something useless.
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