Some days I feel like that -- but if I'm honest, most days I feel that existence is a burden and had darn well better be justifiable. I might feel very differently if I didn't have as much physical pain. I think that sort of thing can really warp a person's outlook.

Sorry to hear that :( But surely, if you're in pain, existence has to answer to you, and not vice versa!

I hear you. That's why I stopped playing chess; the competitive aspect just took over. I am now probably a pretty lousy chess player, and That's Okay. I get my mental stimulation other ways and I enjoy lots of other activities to pass the time.

Oh, I'm extremely competitive (it's a unique rush that I'd hate to give up); I'm just not very *ambitious* about it. I don't need to be the best, I just need to win, or to have given it my best shot and been satisfied with how I did whatever it was I was doing. And being the best is no fun anyway - it's always nicer to have someone to aim at :)

Why thank you! *bow* I bet the world is more than glad to have a hitchhiker, too. I, for one, quite enjoy your journal! :-)

"It's always nice to be appreciated" :)