I'm falling apart

[cjsmith]

My right shoulder is earnestly (though slowly) trying to disassemble itself. The medial end of the collarbone is on walkabout, and out at the actual shoulder, what I suspect is the biceps tendon keeps jumping the groove. I put that back with a weird hand-on-hip, back-up-to-a-wall maneuver, which if successful generates a mildly painful and audible pop before things feel a little better. The arm is weak in certain directions. There's a very low grade ache all the time. When things clank around in there, either near the sternum or at the shoulder, it effing hurts.

I am so over it. It's been ages. I'm ready to get this dealt with. So despite COVID, I'm seeking some elective medical care.

X rays showed nothing. I didn't think they'd show the soft tissue injury, but I'm surprised they didn't notice where the collar bone had got to! But at least going in for that nearly-useless diagnostic has purchased me the right to an orthopedic appointment. That'll be Tuesday.

Bodies. sigh

Comments

[labelleizzy]

It's an ongoing battle to keep them mobile just now. And when they freeze up it hurts. Today's 7/10 good, 2/10 painful.

[cjsmith]

oww! I’m mentally picturing what it must be like for you when they’re more frozen. *virtual hugs*

[labelleizzy]

It feels a little bit like there's sand in the gears, tbqh, only there's also nerve endings...

[cjsmith]

augh. :( BODIES.

Wish I could give you a (gentle) hug.

[labelleizzy]

Well, how do you feel about some vaccinated visiting? Lunch sometime perhaps? It'd be good to talk with you.

[cjsmith]

SURE!!

Lunch is often tough; work makes those furtive and rushed, if they happen at all. But weekend lunches yes, or dinners work too.

I should note I’m more than six months post vaccine, so my protection is waning. :(